I love support, however, my personal experience-strength-hope follows. “when my technology outruns my spirit, it is time to slow down.”
Today for me this means that the “technology” of self sufficiency is inadequate to battle my powerlessness.
It is ok for me to admit personal defeat when I turn to my Higher Power and say, “Hold Me, Guide Me Through This.”
After all of these years, 20 to be exact, I am asking myself today … Do I really Need the internet?
Curious question, I use it daily to look up news, weather, finance data and stay connected with some people. But it has become so commercial and such a frustration. When I can not get to where I want to be it is frustrating. Satellite link down? Frustration.
It has never really been a profit center for me. I have made some cash here and there but never been supported by it. That could be my problem. I may be looking to it as a source instead of a resource.
I will ponder that for a few days.
Today I finished reworking the site (
). Simpler, smaller and much like most of my life. I trust the you are doing well. Thank you for stopping by my blog.
Dear Friends, Family and Fellowship. I just want to let folks know about my new Facebook page, I have not been hacked. This account was set up to allow me to continue being connected with Family and potential clients/customers. I am retooling CLLS and making an effort to generate a successful endeavor. Thank you for your help over the years. James W Hudgens.
The tile to the right will take you to my page.
My last Facebook page, started when Facebook originally published was over 1600 friends strong. However, it was out of control, very old data and I was unable to maintain the connections. I am not striving to build that type of page again, it will be much smaller.
It was difficult to sit in front of an XP computer I could not repair. The computer is slow, I thought I was growing more patient as the years have passed. not true, I did what I could but ended up sending it into “update mode”, locking the office door behind me. Feeling like a failure, I drove home in silence to take a nap. It is difficult to accept but I am not successful everyday.
What will it matter in five years, five weeks or five days. Not much I am sure.
So, I press on. Why do I blog my feelings, because I can.
The Sunrise Road project is moving right along. Today I feel truly blessed to be here and have a good “task” at hand. This week we are hoping to get all of the utilities online and lined out so we can get to work in the cleaning and remodeling aspects.
We look forward to seeing friends and family again soon.
No more searching for sunrise for me … I think I have found it …..
Been spending the morning updating my website. Thinking of ways to help folks with their internet needs, and make a few dollars. CLLS is doing well but things change and you have to keep up. You can check it out at CLLS dot Net.
The Walsenburg project is moving along. Loving being in the mountains, I may never go south again unless I am visiting. Visited my brother Richard and his wife Penny last weekend. It is always great to be with family.